It's Mother's Day and I want to get on here and write some Hallmark worth quote about how amazing all the women in our lives are. How they make us who we are or are going to become. How they sacrifice day after day and time after time. How one day isn't enough. I want to say that without them we would be lost and so many of us are lost after loosing our mothers no matter our age. I want to say that today mothers deserve so much more then we can buy, or give or do for them. And the truth is all of that is so very true. But it feels like such a lie coming from my mouth.
You see even though I love my mom, my grandma's, my aunts, even my best friend's mom, and I want them to know how much they mean to me on mother's day I feel blocked. Because even though they are amazing I forget that I too am a mother. But today isn't for me because I don't fit in the same category as all those amazing moms. I don't deserve to be celebrated on a day like today because I am constantly failing at being the perfect mom, I'm constantly tired, short tempered, and so far from what I feel like I should be. My laundry is forever in a basket, clean or dirty, my child eats corn dogs for lunch because it's not worth the fight, and I don't know what I would do if pony tails didn't exist so my dirty hair couldn't fit into a bun every day. But if I was truly honest with myself I bet every single one of those women in my life would probably say the same thing, that at times they too failed.
So for every type of mom out there, perfect or far from it, Happy Mother's Day. You deserve it.
Despite everything I love my son. And I have to believe that if we love them, truly love them that no matter what happens that's what they will remember. And my wish for all of you moms is that you feel loved today as well.